Just like those old monks used to say,

Everything happened because of a good reason behind it,

I wanna say something alike aswell,

You make it so nice so we learn to live with it.

Just like those bare trees in autumn waiting for the spring,

to come & love them tenderly all their life they wish,

But you can’t expect a season to stay forever,

A t tragic antilogy between fate & bliss.

So fragile are those moments with you I long to live,

Forever to walk besides you until dawn meets dusk,

So weak I’d stand over the zenith of my fate,

A climate so dry but a couth darkness to lurk.

How pleasant is this rhapsodic law of life is,

Your dreams don’t work until you don’t intend,

& on the vestige of your valid happiness,

You find fate drooling over what you’re about to lend.

& you are left alone to judge the nuance of love & hate,

Where you choose your best suited trait,

Now you’d walk again in depths of thorny life,

To justify your feelings & all the long wait.

When I reach to hold her in my dreams everyday,

I wanna whisper wishes to make her heart listen,

That it’s her whom I need to walk alongside me,

& bliss of her hair on my face to make my fate glisten.

Sometimes I wonder that what I do wrong,

or what I lack; least I deserve to know,

It’s a wonderful life to cherish if I keep my dream aside,

Neither a single grief nor a stabbing foe.

This wasn’t a threnody to criticize ”Kismet”

May be reverie overflowing in my veins could be the cause,

It was something I realized sitting under the shed of my rooftop,

Watching raindrops bending the mighty wind to pause.

Then it was a Hail-Storm 

They Stay Where They Belong.

My intentions are nothing;

rather than telling you how beautiful you are,

My way may be different;

just so you don't lose that smile five-star,

When you walk carrying sweet curiosity in eyes;

my heart switches from beats to whispers,

Causing my gestures taking weird formations;

while I am still busy stopping my brain & heart from a war.

"Feelings" is a funny word in English language;

it intrudes your deepest wall of defense,

It's worse in those days of peace within;

when your unjustified ignorance your heart could sense,

Another silly though that makes me smile;

when it is just one face you recall all the time,

& nothing else seem to matter your attention;

my poor mind being jury to this lovely offense.

It's not that I'vent been in such situation before;

Yes I am silly since a time very long,

Surprise is every time I get lost into this maze of reality;

a flute of romance triggers me to find my song,

Search for you always remains as a mesmerizing reminiscence;

especially when I know nothing about you,

Breathless I dream of you with sober eyes;

moments of warmth when I find you along.

Every now & then when our ways bisect;

kills me because I can't call you mine,

Hence the rehearsals in my mirror;

gets better with a few glasses of wine,

Just as plain & direct as you are always;

drives me to blindly love you forever,

To just hold you all my life;

to promise eternal love the moment our hands entwine,

In the end when I've finally gathered the courage to speak;

what I hold there inside,

I now shall wake up from my fantasy;

Once again with a purpose to decide,

You're awesome my darling moreover your tantalizing giggles;

but I'll let my heart down again,

Once again a can of trash;

once again some feelings to slide :)

Yes, It’s difficult to speak to you :)

It gets so difficult to speak to you; the more I think of you,

I do not know since when your eyes became so pretty; could be my feelings new,

When you are sitting before me & my heart pounding at a rate of Ferrari/Hour

My stalking eyes get lit up with flames & butterflies begin to holler.

Yes! It gets so difficult to speak to you; the more I watch you passing by,

The "Charishma" of a dame so gorgeous; making everything seem so high,

Remembering those rare moments when we talked; I wish back then I knew,

That the one I'd fall for would be no one else but you.

That one expression on your face; when you're thinking deep,

Bullies my marshmallow heart who so badly wants to beat,

And when you catch my eyes watching you; I would wanna run & hide,

or may be I wanna let you know everything; DAMNIT! I can't decide.

When I walk through the market; I have always bought a flower eversince,

Everyday of which I thought I'd present to a princess as a prince,

They end up dying each day; cursing my fears of failing again,

How do I justify my defense; that it's me as much screwed as they in pain?

I have my answers,

That why is it so difficult to speak to you; it's your simplicity,

Unlike me; always on a roller-coaster of thoughts merging to the same city,

Life is a risk & I have enjoyed those moments; but not with your extraordinary smile,

Your life may be better without me; & I'd still get to see you may be from a mile.

Wings till Eternity.

Everybody has wings to fly.

Life's not cruel, When I smile often,

& it brings peace, When assumpitions don't happen,

If not the glow of a saint then neither the sorrow of a demon,

This ephemeral journey has only taught me to be human.

But, It wasn't always such a battle!

There was a time when my giggles were cherished,

& the darkness all around would love to perish,

Through my window on the great white world,

My eyes would learn to imagine & draw,

A holy temple where my heart stayed raw.

To feel safe at night, I'd ask Mom to be around,

& I'd hug my pillow on every weird sound,

Yet, I won't sleep until I'm sure,

of my angels to be there in my dreams,

to go on an Ebullient journey of adventure & screams.

Those green toads in the month of July,

Singing along with the birds all set to fly,

As messengers of the mighty 'Thor'

I would know it's that time of the week,

When the rain drops & I played Hide & Seek.

I remember that girl from the neighborhood,

the one whom I'd marry if I ever would,

All the roses of my garden I plucked & proposed,

Felt so happy that day I dared to dance,

The Eyes that I stalked met mine by chance.

The battle started with my first thought,

to change myself to fit in the slot,

A mistake we all are destined with,

& the chaos of a decadent life began,

Fatigued morals leading to plagued plans.

The temple I abandoned is now someone's home,

& the rain drops took form of the tears,

My angels were hunted down within myself,

So the roses in my garden crumbled with fear,

As I stood alone with my artificial emotions.

Today when I sit back & rewind my innocence,

All I search for is that magical sense,

that I possessed as my lucky charm,

Looking at the birds again in the sky, I realize

I have wings till eternity, I just need to fly.

How I Feel?

Summer is cold & the sun is dwarf, still my eyes wish to blink,

You're gone & it's all a shock, still my heart wants to beat,

I melt before you like a candle, how hard it is for steel?

Why should I tell you how I feel?

Elevated my career & plans I never made,

I remember when your face could conquer all that I hate,

A stunning beauty leaving a wound to heal,

Why should I tell you how I feel?

It isn't about why, it isn't about how,

A love is lost all that I hear now,

I'll put my prayer & your happiness under a seal,

But, I'm never gonna tell you how I feel.

The roads that I travel laugh at me, yet I walk

with Empty footsteps being a slave to your company,

& then, it'll rain pushing me to kneel,

Why should I tell you how I feel?

Some delight stays within this languor,

Epiphany of a rejected innocence, Be careful!

A flower; there are times with the thorns it can kill,

Why should I tell you how I feel?

Your promises would make me dream,

The daylight & the dark; it'll all be the same,

Building a perfect home for a lifelong Zeal,

I'm never gonna let you know how I feel?

Time when you're around.

Thank you Katie for such a wonderful illustration.
http://katiewoodgerillustration.blogspot.in

Chasing the pseudo presence of her eyes,
Beautiful as ever denying all my lies,
A lilt of feelings start to frisson,
With an ache inside my resonant heart,
Story that gets me inside as a part.

Diversion they say is the best cure,
But her warmth is so dulcet & extremely pure,
Apricity all around with the luminiscent moon,
Sweet dalliance with the night gets kindled,
To dance in joy when the raindrops sprinkle.

A face that I remember comes alive,
Finally, something to cheer for in this doomed life,
Her soft hands & mellifluos whispers,
Pouring my veins with Idyllic potion,
Slowly destroying my insatiable notion.

The tale of a lonely "Cygnet" now ends,
Azurish my state dissolves & blends,
I see her waving off with no promises,
Bereft of my beloved I stand to taint,
Tracing my way back out of the paint.

A painting that is mounted on my wall,
Is my everything in my world so small,
Watery eyes acknowledging this mendacity,
& penchant heart waiting for a sound,
till the next time when you're around.

Zombieland

Life is a wonderful gift but I will walk alone,

I meet wonderful people but they come & go,

They all smile, they all showcase,

Always a time when it all just looks fake,

I may always contemplate while others smile,

Could be my deficiency I don’t carry a style,

My father tells me of this attire,

We don’t always get what we desire,

My trails for peace die a merciless death,

In all these years what have I become? A void set!

What is yours stands so afar,

Meanwhile, in hopes I keep fixing my radar,

Have a foresight & hit the goal,

What is success? A succesful troll?

I start to complicate as the standards start to fuss,

Yet I don’t find the courage to battle with this calculus,

What is my fault if I take my risks?

The gentle I become, the harder I miss,

One man for himself is what I’ve learnt,

Either you run to survive or you be the hunt,

Death is furious when you know how to feel,

this is a land where even zombies kneel,

Mythology is a dream & evolution a joke,

tons of foolish stuff that happens while you smoke,

Their anger is weak & their love so null,

An emotionless heart with boneless skull.