Insignificance

I lurk perfectly in the shadows

My heart beats once as I take a step

I hear each sound inside and out

Unknown I am to most

Anonymity is the end result

You see me but turn around and I vanish

It is hard to lose a six foot six soul

I am friends to none other than the moles  

Murkiness is in my dark lair

Thoughts are warm but unnoticeable

Hands are cold but largely soft

Excellent insignificance is my decree

Every car passes quickly

Hour ride produces two or three honks

Back at home my indulgences start

Henpeck at the keyboard slowly as I write

The night is mine as I happily create

First light I sleep all day long 

Food is bland as I endure

Poor is my struggle but I still smile

When I die penniless my verse will live on.

Note: This is about what I have been doing since a year, because once when your interest in the world dies it is very hard for someone to regain it & especially when you are alone.

A Body's Demise (The Martyr Too Proud)

If you want me honest it is just about how the little things gets ruined in life, but it can be implied to much bigger problems than those where you Just to destroy them or get destroyed.

It feels as death at my body’s side

With each sickly cough

From the puss that oozes from each orifice

As ash plumes from each sear

Its head burning like an incurable fever;

A conundrum, when concrete meets not abstract

Where Body then ignores Soul

And then is left a husk, dismal carcass

Only rotting upon the pavement, scavengers,

Salivating over the free pickings;

What had been done to wish this hate,

Upon an already meek creature?

I am but a plankton, life dependent,

Upon the waters of nature’s bounty

Like each amoeba, sheltered without consent;

Our lives are dependent on you,

Steely mount, for without your grace

Your love, your approval, your white smile…

Microscopic we shall remain

Forever a feast to greater beasts, greater men;

This ailment was brought upon purposely

You know this, cruel steed

So will you force me to live my life,

Within rocky caverns, eternal shelters?

No! I will not offer more life blood

This supposed charity, I now refuse;

There are other manners of life

Beyond your spectrum, however

Unlikely… perhaps I lie to myself,

With each loss of vigor, martyrdom

Unseen, unappreciated, unapproved…

But so, too, shall you remain fallow

Unused, and no more shall you

Pain my kind, however biased

Your decision was against me

I’ll breath my last,

Without shame,

To end only you.

A Nightmare on Sesame Street

One dark and stormy night
As the Count was taking his nightly flight
He saw Big Bird and Oscar
Having a hand to hand fight


Big Bird sucker punched Oscar
Oscar flew down the street
But he got a handful of feathers
Before he was knocked off his feet


Big Bird kicked all the trash cans
which lined the famous street
This woke the whole neighbourhood
Got everyone on their feet


Mr Snuffaluffagus
was first out of his door
as he ran, he was huffing and puffing
he almost fell to the floor


Bert and Ernie, came out running
they were wearing matching lingerie
Everyone stared at them as they came out
Now everyone will know, they are both gay


What is going on here?
The Cookie Monster screamed
Big Bird and Oscar are fighting
Elmo said, as he giggled and beamed


Then they heard a loud shriek
from further down the street
It was the young girl Nancy
from Nightmare on Elm Street


She was running and screaming
as someone scary was chasing her
they saw a set of blades
from the glove of monster Freddy Krueger


He sliced and he diced
the poor muppets and puppets
stuffing was everywhere
even on his toasted english crumpets


Nancy tried to stop him
As she grabbed hold of his glove
and as she looked into Freddy's eyes
low and behold, now she is in love


Freddy's grin was from ear to ear
as he planned to convert her
from an innocent teenage sweetheart
to a lethal killing Mrs. Freddy Krueger


Just a crazy dream ;)

A Blue Caecity: Cataphysical Symphony of A Blunt Dramatic.

Dear friends,This one pumped out of my heart as an explanation to what did in past. I did not just ruin my one year of college but also deprived myself from your love & I left you in the middle way. I know you all were angry at me when I didn't listen to you all, but you still kept trying. I am sorry my beloveds. I love you all so much. I seek for your forgiveness though I know I have it, But I seek for the promise I have made that I would Live like before again. I Miss You All A Lot. May God Bless You! 

PART I - Inception


It was our sweet dream that ended my torment,
The blissful days and peaceful nights free of haunted memory,
Respite from the bitter recollection of past mistakes,
And for a time the world seemed right and flowed with
Harmonious continuity of thought and rhythm of consciousness.
The dew-jeweled mornings melted into sun-pooled afternoons,
Shadow-dappled evenings flitted by on the wings of winking fireflies,
As we counted stars and threw our dreams up into space,
Hoping some passing comet would ignite the fuel of our hopeless desires.


PART II - The First Decay


Time strode steadily onward over the foothills of our realizations,
Wearing down the valleys of our resolve until deep chasms of doubt formed,
The jagged cliff trails were so treacherous and many a time I watched,
Helpless, as my determination stumbled and was dashed upon the rocks,
Bruising my already weakened grip on the future was had painted together
Until I feared I would lose that precious portrait of tomorrow.

PART III - Termination


There, engulfed by the deepening shadows at the end of that descent,
Oppressed by the brooding overhangs which obscured my view of the sky,
There it was that I realized the severity of my present situation,
As dread swiftly crept up and suffocated any lingering happiness and
Wrenching freedom from my fragile grasp before I could cry out for help.
It was only then that I saw true form of fate through that shining facade,
Caught a glimpse through the cracks of the lies I had so blindly fallen for,
Bound so tightly in that shell of polished and enchanting deceit of I invented.


PART IV - Remorse


I should have known better than to think happiness could be real,
But now it is much too late to turn back and start over,
I have already been locked within this prison of obedient obligation,
The cold bars of steel law and the intricate locks of promises made
Confine me to this fate of miserable duty and unhappy servitude;
The whom I once thought to be luxurious now serves as my warden,
Keeping watchful eye to cut off any escape before attempt can be made,
And my peripatetic soul who tests the limits of my faltering dedication.


My Friends:
Siddharth, Yuvraj, Nikhil, Ramakant, Rati, Rahul, Abhay, Pankaj, Ashutosh, Shashank, Vivekanand, Jai, Anuradha, Saurav.

Immortal Spring ♥

A Heavy Breath, A Face That Once Frowned,

A reason of your beauty that tears had drowned,

A touch of an ending that I felt in your silence,

A walk that was empty handed last spring,

Never again, Never again You'd break that string.

A hopeless life you wanted to go through,

A set of bricks where you caged yourself,

A moment of joy that you did long for,

A 'someone' that was suddenly called an elf,

Never again, Never again You'd break that string.

My heart would fly for you baby,

When your eyes shall start a fire,

Turn & break everything you want to,

I want to see you smile, I want to be your desire,

The little touch you missed in love,

I shall have you all stunned,

Bubbles of my love surround you everywhere,

Let's get lost because we can wherever.

We have our moon & I'd be your delight,

Set a mischief, tunes of your music to clouds,

Be mine when you let me dance high,

Dreams coming true & nature would vouch,

Sweet vengeance our past shall feel,

When we walk together on our palace on wheels,

Blanket of rain to keep our love alive,

We shall visit Angels for a high five.

Because A cup of coffee, A rose in bed,

An afternoon sigh that I hear in my shed,

A giggle of happiness when we dine,

A family only true love can define,

Always baby, Always An Immortal Spring.

A Curtain Drawn Over Dreamers.

When in grade school,

he drew gently with erasers on his desk,

the patterns rubbing away

with a flick of his small hands.

It was safe.

He could express himself

without getting caught,

no consequences to his actions.

He drew, and it was safe, and soft,

and he dreamed of wonderful things.

When in middle school,

he sketched on the smoothness,

quick strokes that ran

sharp against the faux-wood desk exterior.

It was defiance.

He could taunt fate with his graphite,

before erasing it

just before the teacher saw.

He drew, and it was quick, and hard,

and he dreamed of ordinary things.

When in high school,

he carved deep into the wood,

his words crude on the pristine surface,

unable to be washed away.

It was rebellion.

He could dig an angry tribute

to himself, the shavings from his pen

littering his too-tight jeans.

He drew, and it was harsh, and bitter,

and he dreamed of his great escape.

Now as an 'adult' ,

he attempts to make his mark,

suffocating among crowds

of similar dreamers.

It is weary.

He can express, and taunt,

and carve his way into the world,

without even leaving indelible marks.

He draws, and it is difficult, and lonely,

and he dreams of nothing at all.

Sad but true .

Purple Thoughts!

Crooning my pain into a rhythm

The blank brown sky makes me daunt,

This isn't my battle the rain drops tell me,

Enhanced, Engrossed still they just haunt.

I feel a strong flare before my eyes

A continuous episode of genocides,

Ineluctable jiffy of my darkest fears

You dare it & We will make it Die.

It turns round & soon I see the moon

Greatest of my only companions,

My pallid eyes pray for clearance

& It whispers, Yes! You're just a minion.

I hear an oratorio from a nearby,

The story is about false eyes,

Crazy & pure he was driven

A blink caused him a forever cry.

If one plural thing I can hold

My own fiasco I'll vouch,

The cascade I'll fall through

Never I'll regret, ever I say ouch.

On a stage for a 100 claps

Again I'll tie some hand knots,

Floating through hills of trials

I'll wake up with my Purple Thoughts.

She's My Everything :-)

She's the sweet taste of Love

On my lips every morning.

She's the Green and the Gleem

In my eyes every time.

She's the Smile on my face

And the joy within my heart.

She's the one that I miss

Every second that we are apart.

She's the reason I get up in the morning

And why I go to bed at night.

She's the one that I'm dreaming of

And wanting, always, by my side.

She's the Birthday Girl today

And even if everything else,

We did dispise,

We still had eachother

And that part was so nice!

She's the blush in my cheeks

When she looks at me.

The things she says makes me smile

And laugh, continually!

She's the whisper on the breeze

As it blows through my hair.

She's the sun on my face

And that feeling in the air.

She's the song in my head

That I never want to go away.

She's like the sunrise and sunset,

Beautiful in every single way.

She's my heart

My soul

And my mind

My 

soul mate

My life mate

And all that this implies.

She's my Everything

And I Love her so much

And she feels the same way.

So for all this and more

Here's something I write For You

My Dear Therese

On your Birthday!

Can You Hear Me?

Can you hear me?
I'm calling into the night for you.
The wind carries the love song of my heart.
Do you hear me?


With only the moon to light my way,
I wonder this new path of fire every night.
I walk into those heights of love & passion,
Where we meet everyday after so much missing.


A union of souls happens everyday,
I Love you more each day,
What love has fated cannot be undone,
But I have faith wakes me up sudden.


When I'm alone looking to the moon and stars,
They hear my confession.
Guilty as charged for a crime of passion.
On this river bank is where I must stay.


What must I do,
To undo the pain of not being with you?
I am tethered to this place,
Where I live alone without being made,
Unable to leave, I long for your embrace.


A family of three
Is what I long for us to be.
You and our little girl
Make up my whole world.


But without my family
I have no cause to be.
I am only one,
Without you...am done.


So, alas, I wander this moonlit path,
Wondering if the night shall ever pass
That I'll be in your arms once again tomorrow. ;o)

Let's Walk Again?

I walk around the darkest trail
Left alongside my dreamy path
I see footsteps fainting along the way
Alone and afraid if ever I fail!


I fall into the deepest pit
Trap conceived by my own self-doubts
I spiral down and down its unending abyss
Continuing till it’s not even dimly lit


I walk on those wintry nights
Into places ever unknown
Frozen and benumbed by the merciless wind
With destination nowhere within my sights


Questions popped wherever they could
Speechless and wondering there I stood
Too ahead now to return back
Is this indeed where I should be?? 


Then a voice pierced through me
Streaks of light flooded the pit
Lifting my very soul with it
I found my spirits floating with the clouds


The coldest night breathed its last
As the spring caught up fast
The birds chirped in the sweetest of tones
And for once I knew I wasn’t alone


There by the trees swaying in tune
To light winds whistling at noon
By the place where sunlight threw
Its welcomed warmth, I knew it was you. 


Your smile set out the spark
That silenced inside me, all daemons dark
Your touch sent waves inside me soar
Together we continued to explore


Days went by, the time just flew
But I remained in awe of you
The little talks now didn’t mattered much
For even your silence was eternal bliss


There was a turn, ill-fated it was
Where you & I felt like Alone
The spin of magical nature
That we’ll meet, couldn’t have known      


The lights remain, my mind is firm
Spring feels divine, the sun still shine
I'm swimming under my dreams,
I know I've found my Valentine,


Now here I am, sitting at the helm 
And there you are, all way to the top
Celebrating my life, Just a wish remains
Onto those paths, let’s walk again? 

Love Note

I Could Write About The Way I Feel For You,

That You're In My Thoughts From Every Possible View,

My Day Swing Right When I See Your Face,

The Way You Laugh Is Like An Amazing Grace,

How Roses Are Nothing Compared To You,

How Birds Didn't Compare To Your Beauty When They Flew,

How You're The Only One I Admire,

How You make Me Strong & Rise Like Fire,

How Beautiful Songs Your Eyes Always Sing,

How You Encourage Me To Put On Wings,

How You're The Only One I Feel For Me,

I Mean It All, Just Try To See,

I Could Truely & Honestly Mean It All,

But I Wouldn't Want To See You Face Fall,

So As I Look At What I've Wrote,

I'll Just Sign It Of As A Silly Love Note. 

OH HOW BEAUTIFUL !

Oh how beautiful you truly are,

Capturing my heart over any

other by far.

Often I ask just how you do 

this to me,

Blind me to all til it is only

you I see.

Dreams on the darkest of nights

are only mine,

Every time I look into your 

eyes they shine.

Wondering what I have done

to deserve you,

The love you show me, a

love so true.

How lucky I am to have found

one so beautiful,

Bringing to my life everything

that is wonderful.

It is then I pray to the Lord

up high,

Thanking him as sweet and loving 

tears I cry.