Immortal Spring ♥

A Heavy Breath, A Face That Once Frowned,

A reason of your beauty that tears had drowned,

A touch of an ending that I felt in your silence,

A walk that was empty handed last spring,

Never again, Never again You'd break that string.

A hopeless life you wanted to go through,

A set of bricks where you caged yourself,

A moment of joy that you did long for,

A 'someone' that was suddenly called an elf,

Never again, Never again You'd break that string.

My heart would fly for you baby,

When your eyes shall start a fire,

Turn & break everything you want to,

I want to see you smile, I want to be your desire,

The little touch you missed in love,

I shall have you all stunned,

Bubbles of my love surround you everywhere,

Let's get lost because we can wherever.

We have our moon & I'd be your delight,

Set a mischief, tunes of your music to clouds,

Be mine when you let me dance high,

Dreams coming true & nature would vouch,

Sweet vengeance our past shall feel,

When we walk together on our palace on wheels,

Blanket of rain to keep our love alive,

We shall visit Angels for a high five.

Because A cup of coffee, A rose in bed,

An afternoon sigh that I hear in my shed,

A giggle of happiness when we dine,

A family only true love can define,

Always baby, Always An Immortal Spring.

A Curtain Drawn Over Dreamers.

When in grade school,

he drew gently with erasers on his desk,

the patterns rubbing away

with a flick of his small hands.

It was safe.

He could express himself

without getting caught,

no consequences to his actions.

He drew, and it was safe, and soft,

and he dreamed of wonderful things.

When in middle school,

he sketched on the smoothness,

quick strokes that ran

sharp against the faux-wood desk exterior.

It was defiance.

He could taunt fate with his graphite,

before erasing it

just before the teacher saw.

He drew, and it was quick, and hard,

and he dreamed of ordinary things.

When in high school,

he carved deep into the wood,

his words crude on the pristine surface,

unable to be washed away.

It was rebellion.

He could dig an angry tribute

to himself, the shavings from his pen

littering his too-tight jeans.

He drew, and it was harsh, and bitter,

and he dreamed of his great escape.

Now as an 'adult' ,

he attempts to make his mark,

suffocating among crowds

of similar dreamers.

It is weary.

He can express, and taunt,

and carve his way into the world,

without even leaving indelible marks.

He draws, and it is difficult, and lonely,

and he dreams of nothing at all.

Sad but true .

Purple Thoughts!

Crooning my pain into a rhythm

The blank brown sky makes me daunt,

This isn't my battle the rain drops tell me,

Enhanced, Engrossed still they just haunt.

I feel a strong flare before my eyes

A continuous episode of genocides,

Ineluctable jiffy of my darkest fears

You dare it & We will make it Die.

It turns round & soon I see the moon

Greatest of my only companions,

My pallid eyes pray for clearance

& It whispers, Yes! You're just a minion.

I hear an oratorio from a nearby,

The story is about false eyes,

Crazy & pure he was driven

A blink caused him a forever cry.

If one plural thing I can hold

My own fiasco I'll vouch,

The cascade I'll fall through

Never I'll regret, ever I say ouch.

On a stage for a 100 claps

Again I'll tie some hand knots,

Floating through hills of trials

I'll wake up with my Purple Thoughts.

She's My Everything :-)

She's the sweet taste of Love

On my lips every morning.

She's the Green and the Gleem

In my eyes every time.

She's the Smile on my face

And the joy within my heart.

She's the one that I miss

Every second that we are apart.

She's the reason I get up in the morning

And why I go to bed at night.

She's the one that I'm dreaming of

And wanting, always, by my side.

She's the Birthday Girl today

And even if everything else,

We did dispise,

We still had eachother

And that part was so nice!

She's the blush in my cheeks

When she looks at me.

The things she says makes me smile

And laugh, continually!

She's the whisper on the breeze

As it blows through my hair.

She's the sun on my face

And that feeling in the air.

She's the song in my head

That I never want to go away.

She's like the sunrise and sunset,

Beautiful in every single way.

She's my heart

My soul

And my mind

My 

soul mate

My life mate

And all that this implies.

She's my Everything

And I Love her so much

And she feels the same way.

So for all this and more

Here's something I write For You

My Dear Therese

On your Birthday!

Can You Hear Me?

Can you hear me?
I'm calling into the night for you.
The wind carries the love song of my heart.
Do you hear me?


With only the moon to light my way,
I wonder this new path of fire every night.
I walk into those heights of love & passion,
Where we meet everyday after so much missing.


A union of souls happens everyday,
I Love you more each day,
What love has fated cannot be undone,
But I have faith wakes me up sudden.


When I'm alone looking to the moon and stars,
They hear my confession.
Guilty as charged for a crime of passion.
On this river bank is where I must stay.


What must I do,
To undo the pain of not being with you?
I am tethered to this place,
Where I live alone without being made,
Unable to leave, I long for your embrace.


A family of three
Is what I long for us to be.
You and our little girl
Make up my whole world.


But without my family
I have no cause to be.
I am only one,
Without you...am done.


So, alas, I wander this moonlit path,
Wondering if the night shall ever pass
That I'll be in your arms once again tomorrow. ;o)

Let's Walk Again?

I walk around the darkest trail
Left alongside my dreamy path
I see footsteps fainting along the way
Alone and afraid if ever I fail!


I fall into the deepest pit
Trap conceived by my own self-doubts
I spiral down and down its unending abyss
Continuing till it’s not even dimly lit


I walk on those wintry nights
Into places ever unknown
Frozen and benumbed by the merciless wind
With destination nowhere within my sights


Questions popped wherever they could
Speechless and wondering there I stood
Too ahead now to return back
Is this indeed where I should be?? 


Then a voice pierced through me
Streaks of light flooded the pit
Lifting my very soul with it
I found my spirits floating with the clouds


The coldest night breathed its last
As the spring caught up fast
The birds chirped in the sweetest of tones
And for once I knew I wasn’t alone


There by the trees swaying in tune
To light winds whistling at noon
By the place where sunlight threw
Its welcomed warmth, I knew it was you. 


Your smile set out the spark
That silenced inside me, all daemons dark
Your touch sent waves inside me soar
Together we continued to explore


Days went by, the time just flew
But I remained in awe of you
The little talks now didn’t mattered much
For even your silence was eternal bliss


There was a turn, ill-fated it was
Where you & I felt like Alone
The spin of magical nature
That we’ll meet, couldn’t have known      


The lights remain, my mind is firm
Spring feels divine, the sun still shine
I'm swimming under my dreams,
I know I've found my Valentine,


Now here I am, sitting at the helm 
And there you are, all way to the top
Celebrating my life, Just a wish remains
Onto those paths, let’s walk again? 

Love Note

I Could Write About The Way I Feel For You,

That You're In My Thoughts From Every Possible View,

My Day Swing Right When I See Your Face,

The Way You Laugh Is Like An Amazing Grace,

How Roses Are Nothing Compared To You,

How Birds Didn't Compare To Your Beauty When They Flew,

How You're The Only One I Admire,

How You make Me Strong & Rise Like Fire,

How Beautiful Songs Your Eyes Always Sing,

How You Encourage Me To Put On Wings,

How You're The Only One I Feel For Me,

I Mean It All, Just Try To See,

I Could Truely & Honestly Mean It All,

But I Wouldn't Want To See You Face Fall,

So As I Look At What I've Wrote,

I'll Just Sign It Of As A Silly Love Note. 

OH HOW BEAUTIFUL !

Oh how beautiful you truly are,

Capturing my heart over any

other by far.

Often I ask just how you do 

this to me,

Blind me to all til it is only

you I see.

Dreams on the darkest of nights

are only mine,

Every time I look into your 

eyes they shine.

Wondering what I have done

to deserve you,

The love you show me, a

love so true.

How lucky I am to have found

one so beautiful,

Bringing to my life everything

that is wonderful.

It is then I pray to the Lord

up high,

Thanking him as sweet and loving 

tears I cry.

Melts Away...

When left alone with my own thoughts in the madness of this world, I tear my own mind to pieces.

I extrapolate, I contemplate, I interpolate, and I exaggerate,
my desperate machinations taking my everyday troubles, my buried past,

my uncertain but certainly not so distant future and my unfulfilled regrets,

and gathers them up against me like an angry maelstrom,

spiraling outward, building pressure inward, as it slips out of my control...
And what was once docile ponderings has moved through vicious meanderings

and has begun its assault on my active conscious mind.
The sanctuary of my inner thoughts has lost its aura of peace

and its newfound aggression has begun to influence my physical dealings

with the people around me who can't even see the storm.
As my mind delves into chaos, frustration becoming anger,

the endless crashing waves of my thoughts pull me under,

drowning me in this swirling abyss of violent misconceptions.
Turned against myself, I rage against the nothing,

only to have my futile attempts strangle me in the end;
and as I give into the darkness of my masochistic head,

she walks in, I see that face,


and it all





melts away!

Prison - Letter To My Girl!

Why! you must think me mad!
Holding so feircely to what i never had
Never to have kissed, only once touched your hand.
Still my heart beats out of its cage
Trapped inside gasping red ragged rage
Out of the bars I call your name
Out of the window I look for you
Although concrete blocks the view.
My fingers burning, singed at the tips
Where they twined with yours thru the fence,
Your eyes pained as i went.
Still my heart beats out of tune
Chained and shackled in prison ruins
Have i gone totally insane?
Fervently praying on fire in vain
A crazy man all the same
I fall asleep with your name!


Not a word as days came and went
A routine of expectation
Turned sour in the event
Nerves unabated given to officious release
Foolish and futile infatuation on razors of grief.
A new day risen again with hope and wait
Poised like flower buds ready to wake
Is that the postman with his arms all full?
Alas again it comes an empty satchel.
Mad to the teeth i tremble and roar
Why do I drive myself thru this door?
I curse your name! and break alegiance
Revoke my oath with black smoking grievance
But only a minute and an hour will pass
Before I fall back to relapse.
Tommorrow maybe i will be saved
By words written some yesterdays
And the buds will open and beautifully bloom
Gone the dark cloudy sea of doom.
If ever the words were enough or soon
They are forget-me-nots born in june.
They are just enough to keep me going
just enough to keep my eye
Locked on the door for the post to arrive!


And now in winters cold retreat
Worn and weary I admit defeat
I have waited much too long
To hear the sweet birds of song.
Only the seagulls laughing at me
Reminding you are out of reach
Today i look to the clear blue sky
Over the razor wire and wonder why.
The future calls and I must move on
But i take you with me when I'm gone.
Always a sparkle I remember well
Your eyes a secret I'll never tell
For that is mine and mine alone
Even if it's turned to stone.
Now are times of wandering trust
And memories that have turned to dust
Many times I banged my head to reason
Making excuses to cover your treason
Still I stand a fool of old
A beggar of dreams wrapped in gold
Please remember me in kind
And I will you for all time.

Flaw Of My Living!

I Lay Down In My Bed,
With some familiar Delight,
My grave got some warm comfort,
Damn!! It's a Freezing Cold Night,
& I close my eyes after an inconsious fight!

Who is that?? There !! At the street Pole?
I walk myself to the somewhat identical place,
A guy so tall, with cold & pale emotions,
Oh Yeah!! He screams, Cries & do Nothing,
He is an illusion showing me "The Everything"

Oh these are stormy days,
I never kept myself enough ways,
& Now?? I've a don't care smile,
That's my "CURSE", that's me dying inside,
I stare the STARS, I see a lustrous disguise!

I'm a thorn living with Roses,
Too Many Lies, Too many favours,
Though Never wanted to hurt these flowers,
Fractious, Insane & Several Pronouns,
A Recusant morose! Ah! Al these "Sounds"

I make prosimes, I Break them,
They "LOVE ME" so they take them,
Spolied by admireres & pampered by elders,
Just Perishable feelings & a "sinful" life,
ALMIGHTY!! I now await your obdurate *sigh*!

With this dream everyday,
I wake up when it's almost Dark,
I open my mouth & I again do a bark,
Yes! I cannot be re-constructed, * A Constant Laughter*,
This is a flaw of living oR WHATEVER??

Prohibited

With Some Deep Dark,
& Some Extended Bark,
With Some Jumping Shine,
& Some Desired Wine,
I Betray Myself For My Destiny Edited,
Again I'm Here With A Lable THE PROHOBITED!

PROHIBITED THE PROHIBITED,
For The Lights Of Demand,
To Change My Residence,
I Need A Magic Wand.


To Start An Ask Search,
& To Please Stones To Merge,
To Play With Flowers To Turn,
& To Stop evil Burns,
I Betray Myself & Deny The Joy Visited,
Again I'm Here With A Lable THE PROHIBITED!

PROHIBITED THE PROHIBITED,
For The Anger I Feel,
Why It Is So Hard Here,
To Get A 3 Time Meal.

To open the inside corridor,
& not to be a part of The more,
To decide the age of our past,
& to save a myth such vast,
I betray myself to do The committed,
Again I'm Here With A Lable THE PROHOBITED!

PROHIBITED THE PROHIBITED,
For the broken jewels,
& to run when nobody drives,
Just to help a child who fell.

For The Waiting Live Idiots,
& For The Devoted Patriots,
For The Paucity Of Kindness,
& For Some Dead Witnesses,
I Betray Myself & Pause My Career Elevated,
Again I'm Here With A Label THE PROHIBITED!

PROHIBITED THE PROHIBITED,
For My Feeling Of Disgust,
& Where I'm Just Left With A Word,
Adjust, Adjust, Adjust:-|

Nu-Year!

The words are all mine,
All Friends Are Just So Fine,
You may Not Understand,
Wheather It's A BeeR oR Wine.

A Nu-Year has arrived,
Some Aspects are newly derived,
I still see everyone as stranger,
Because everyone can be bribed.

I haven't understood my nature yet,
everytime I do something immature,
Resolutions still can't be locked,
Collisions might take place between a comet & Meteor.

My Girl shows immense passion,
the thing isn't generally in fashion,
I Need to mould myself as per she is,
Still She's living in a sweet illusion.

Anyways A Nu-Year It is,
My Family trust me for this,
Oh-God Power Is Yours I'm Down,
Hope You'll Blow A Helpful Bliss.

Bye Bye !

I'm misunderstood,
Always Like it's a routine,
Even I'm also a human,
Not a monster using Protein.

Wateva it is I can't speak more,
It's Because I'm Frustrated To the Core,
You People Were Always straight,
It was me who didn't understand the rate.

Dear Friends keep smiling & Live Your Life,
Remove me by cutting it with a knife,
You may abuse me for this,
I may be the part you are gonna miss.

But see the reality dear lads,
With another new sun my reality fades,
I again & again Apply new lies,
There's no limit even after the skies.

Guilt is the feeling i seldom feel,
My wounds are never gonna heal,
A lotta Thanks To You All,
That You Supported Whenever I Fall.

My Absence is gonna be my Tribute,
For all things you have my heartly salute,
A sweet good bye oR a sad departure I can't say,
But from nowonwards I won't be able to say Hey!

Let Me. ( Love Kasam )

Holding your hand with mine,
Lemme take you to a world such fine,
Where my mixture of care & warmth,
Shall gift you the comfort divine.

Lemme take you to a citywalk there,
To the clear roads seeming so pleasant & Fair,
Leaving behind the rigid barriers,
Lemme fly you away to the Moon's Glacier.

As night brings the silent beauty,
Lemme play the flute of romance,
Shall I search your suppressed wish?
Shall I ask you To dance?

Lemme talk to those mystiq eyes,
Erasing all my guilts inside,
Lemme learn not to flee from you,
But to wait for a Time infinite,

Lemme paint something true,
Something that might prove my presence,
Something that might promise you well,
That You'll always be my favourite Fragrance!

Epoch.

lying in bed,
having a flashback,
my eyes kept wondering,
the feelings todae i lack,

my breadth talked about a fragrance,
leaving me perplexed,
the wind was singing,
but the words were so very complexed,

found my hand against mind,
moving to unlock my epoch,
my fear was in front of me,
i cried resisted & said OUCH!

I saw her calling me,
Calling me as if she’s alone,
My presence was her need,
& she was helpless & even i cudn’t phone,

Oh-god! I shouted,
Willing to hold her,
But suddenly everything vanished,
Reminding me of being a dreamer,

The night left me with teary eyes,
With the feeling of attention,
The epoch got closed & said,
It’s not just about intentions

Trust- A new curiosity!

Should I believe(trust) Blindly?
I saw the birds roaming,
Birds of love in my living hell,
Is this an illusion,
Or eyes resonding virtuality?
I never expected this happening,
Drops of rain covering my hands,
Asking me, I can also smile,
Please! I don’t want this to vanish,
Oh-darling! Are you here?
I wish if i could hold you,
Let my hands feel your existence,
Let me dance on your magical tunes,
Please get me outta this helluva,
I can’t bear this dark anymore,
You’re a reason of my rebirth,
Deny the dominance of wrath on me,
But if you departed then?
This makes me fear a bit,
Again this black reminds me,
Should i trust blindly?

Situations

Limitations grows like a monster,
Undesirable & furious,
Even the survival is now adrous,
Is there any solution? Oh I’m so curious.

Destiny plays despotic spells,
Let’s see who is gonna win
Fight hard is what I was taught,
But it is the fruit of my own sins.

I’m like the king in chess square,
Gonna be hit & trapped in hades,
All these nightmares are usual today,
Ma will disappears & all hope fades.

All lessons I’ve learnt have failed,
Now I can’t glow & flourish,
Ma soul is loosing faith in me,
& I find nobody to cherish.

Behaving like a diseased persona,
Lacking in all virtous qualities,
Sorrows & pain are my only reflection,
Will I improve there is zero probability.

Humanity is the only way to heaven,
Existence of mine is fake then,
We are here for some tasks,
The first story I listened I was born when.

End of this is must for me,
A vital decision is awaited,
Although the outcomes aren’t sure,
I may be admired or hated.

RealiTY

Every moment I live,

I feel that I have a lot,
But what reality reminds me,
That I have to be satisfied with a small pot.

Every moment I move,
I feel that I’m collecting memories,
But everytime I woke up,
I regret being in tales of fairies.

That means neither I live nor I wok,
As I’m the uninvited guest,
Unable to find the hidden worth,
Standing quite at stage of life’s fest.

Love is the drug I need todae,
But still there is a confusion,
Passing blind days & visble nights,
Thinking was she just an illusion??

Forget the past is what my mind speaks,
Even I admit that my choice was wrong,
But still in can’t stop my heart,
From singing that painful song

Echoes Till Eternity

It’z nly me,
An echo,
A whisper,
A heartbeat,
A memory in ya past,
Inside ya mind I’ll linger freva,
Waitin thr for years to cum,
All those long years,
Jz waitin
I may be gone for ya in wakin life,
Bt ma soul will haunt ya freva,
& ma memories aswell,
Ya soul will haunt me too,
Secret memories & thots,
Hidden in secret places,
I’ll be here freva,
Jz waitin like a rose,
That crumbles in death,
But is remembered freva,
As ma luv in nuthin,
But an echo,
A whisper,
A heartbeat,
A memorie in ya past,
It’z nly me!