Epoch.

lying in bed,
having a flashback,
my eyes kept wondering,
the feelings todae i lack,

my breadth talked about a fragrance,
leaving me perplexed,
the wind was singing,
but the words were so very complexed,

found my hand against mind,
moving to unlock my epoch,
my fear was in front of me,
i cried resisted & said OUCH!

I saw her calling me,
Calling me as if she’s alone,
My presence was her need,
& she was helpless & even i cudn’t phone,

Oh-god! I shouted,
Willing to hold her,
But suddenly everything vanished,
Reminding me of being a dreamer,

The night left me with teary eyes,
With the feeling of attention,
The epoch got closed & said,
It’s not just about intentions

Trust- A new curiosity!

Should I believe(trust) Blindly?
I saw the birds roaming,
Birds of love in my living hell,
Is this an illusion,
Or eyes resonding virtuality?
I never expected this happening,
Drops of rain covering my hands,
Asking me, I can also smile,
Please! I don’t want this to vanish,
Oh-darling! Are you here?
I wish if i could hold you,
Let my hands feel your existence,
Let me dance on your magical tunes,
Please get me outta this helluva,
I can’t bear this dark anymore,
You’re a reason of my rebirth,
Deny the dominance of wrath on me,
But if you departed then?
This makes me fear a bit,
Again this black reminds me,
Should i trust blindly?

Situations

Limitations grows like a monster,
Undesirable & furious,
Even the survival is now adrous,
Is there any solution? Oh I’m so curious.

Destiny plays despotic spells,
Let’s see who is gonna win
Fight hard is what I was taught,
But it is the fruit of my own sins.

I’m like the king in chess square,
Gonna be hit & trapped in hades,
All these nightmares are usual today,
Ma will disappears & all hope fades.

All lessons I’ve learnt have failed,
Now I can’t glow & flourish,
Ma soul is loosing faith in me,
& I find nobody to cherish.

Behaving like a diseased persona,
Lacking in all virtous qualities,
Sorrows & pain are my only reflection,
Will I improve there is zero probability.

Humanity is the only way to heaven,
Existence of mine is fake then,
We are here for some tasks,
The first story I listened I was born when.

End of this is must for me,
A vital decision is awaited,
Although the outcomes aren’t sure,
I may be admired or hated.

RealiTY

Every moment I live,

I feel that I have a lot,
But what reality reminds me,
That I have to be satisfied with a small pot.

Every moment I move,
I feel that I’m collecting memories,
But everytime I woke up,
I regret being in tales of fairies.

That means neither I live nor I wok,
As I’m the uninvited guest,
Unable to find the hidden worth,
Standing quite at stage of life’s fest.

Love is the drug I need todae,
But still there is a confusion,
Passing blind days & visble nights,
Thinking was she just an illusion??

Forget the past is what my mind speaks,
Even I admit that my choice was wrong,
But still in can’t stop my heart,
From singing that painful song

Echoes Till Eternity

It’z nly me,
An echo,
A whisper,
A heartbeat,
A memory in ya past,
Inside ya mind I’ll linger freva,
Waitin thr for years to cum,
All those long years,
Jz waitin
I may be gone for ya in wakin life,
Bt ma soul will haunt ya freva,
& ma memories aswell,
Ya soul will haunt me too,
Secret memories & thots,
Hidden in secret places,
I’ll be here freva,
Jz waitin like a rose,
That crumbles in death,
But is remembered freva,
As ma luv in nuthin,
But an echo,
A whisper,
A heartbeat,
A memorie in ya past,
It’z nly me!

Fuck-OFF!

Y am i so mad?
Always pissed,
Makes me so angry,
Filled with so much anger,
People always,
Stressing me out,
Annoying me,
Coming at me,
From every direction,
Makes me fucking insane in mind,
I can’t stand it,
It makes me,
Scream inside,
Y don’t they,
Just go away,
Whishing they would,
Die before my eyes,
Just die please ,
Go the fuck away,
Leave me the hell alone,
Before you find,
Your fucking blood,
Upon my hands!

Death Note!

Do I look like I’m living?
If yes, then what are you giving?
I only deserve the death note,
End my worthless life Oh-You!
I bet you’ll be proud after you do.

A poor is signified from my eyes,
I stand straight despite of million lies,
Sympathy with me is unlike,
I live as I’m a nature’s joke,
Can’t you just force & let my throat choke?

I saunter by in night,
Playing with shimmering light,
Free I’m now I thought,
But suddenly I saw you there,
Don’t you care for my single tear?

You are demanding a grave peril,
Don’t irritate my internal evil,
I rest because I Love you like anything,
Please leave and let me weep,
After this I’m going to have an eternal sleep.

& don’t remember me by,
It will cause pain there up high,
Your single tear will burden me up,
I’ll be clearing all my credits,
for the ultimate edit.

<--Confession-->

It’s so hard to explain,
That I’m not trying to cheat,
The only way to confess my crime,
That you have to listen to my heartbeat

You were sad it is so painful,
Like the unexpected happening,
Destiny made us apart &,
I’m dejected & depressed every morning.

I see you through my every vision,
But this feeling is not enough,
My all dreams have buried alive,
Can’t you forgive & accept my love?

I dared to look beyond my limits,
Yes I know you felt depressing,
You think that I’m not fair,
Oh-god it’s so embarassing.

My confession may not be visible,
But one day you’ll know,
It’s hard but I’ll prove,
That I’m honest & not your Foe.

CaNDle

Erasing the dark,

With soft light,
My future with you,
Now seems bright,

You pain youself,
To let me feel relaxed,
& you don’t ever realized,
That you are also waxed,

A moment in your company,
Help me stand throughout,
My introvert then screams,
IDIOT=)) go have some shout,

I’m blessed with you darling,
The precious gift forever,
A promise i wanna make,
Love you so much & forget you never,

When my world was gloomy,
You as a candle came,
& lit up my heart with happiness,
You are my Angel-Dame!

AccuseD!

Accused of being a problem,
For the one I Love,
No one hav eva undrstud,
That I’m as innocent as dove.

Accused of things I didn commit ,
Jz coz of false mirrors,
Sometimes I feel so helpless that,
I see myself as soul of errors.

Accused of being irresponsible,
Though wasn’t given any guidance,
Or may be I’m so numb,
That I don’t feel any ones presence.

Accused of living in dream world,
Scolded somtimes & sometimes Laughed at,
OnLy virtual things are my only companions,
Nobdy Listens & they call me MadL

Accused of being a torture,
Do my affection irritates,
My life has become a graveyard,
My shattered heart says--- >>

HaTe mE HaTe!

Dusk’s Realization

Resisting tears in my eyes,
Feeling neglected at the moment,
I can’t find a situation,
Making me smile,
Though I’ve covered miles.

A query from the broken heart,
What I’ve earned?
In my life’s biggest sacrifices,
I never got to put up a wish,
& now there is no sign of bliss.

Sun sets like every day,
But I always feel a difference,
Nightmares are running towards me,
I hide my face & try to cure my silent pain,
Thinking did my heart Loose to my brain?

Vanishing hopes had something to say,
Still a refusal came from my side,
I diverged from my path,
Now I call myself innocent or saint,
As I can’t withsatand the Blame.

Leave It Behind

I’m tired of pretending,
Pretending to smile when i want to cry,
Being happy when i’m sad,
Tired of all those lies.

I’m tired of pretending,
To be over it all,
Saying that i doesn’t love her anymore,
When i can’t forget it at all.

It seems that if you’re a part of me,
The piece that i can’t bind,
The piece that is missing,
The part that i can’t find.

You’re the one thing ,
That i’ll never be able to share,
Although you are miles away ,
But you’re right here.

I’m trying to get rid of the memories,
From when we were together,
Believing each other,
& doing whatever!
I thought it would be easy,
But i can’t seem to forget,
Any of those things,
For which i now regret.

So now all i've got left to do,
Is end it all,
And not lying you know,
Disposing my emotions into sacrifice’s canal.

Tonight i’ll wound my arm,
Close my eyes & become blind,
I won’t leave you a letter,
I’ll leave it all behind.

 I’M MovinG oN

I’m moving on, And if I Feel the need to cry, it wont be for the heartache you have made, not for the regrets that I have, nor for the anger that i felt, but I’ll cry because of the love that I was never able to share with the one girl i fell for. I’ll cry for the love that was lost & not for the girl who left.
I’m moving on, I’ll try to wake up in the morning & smile & think not of why you left, but that once you stayed. No! Don’t try to reason with me, this is too much... I’ll try not to think of you, but when I wake up in the morning I ask myself if somehow you’re also awake. I have my own life to lead & my own life to think of. No! I won’t even think of you while I’m eating my breakfast wondering if you’re doing the same because sooner or later I know you will. No never will I go to the comfort room & lock myself in, just to have some privacy to sadly think of you, cry or do some foolish things because of you.
I’ve had enough. I’ll try to hold back the tears when I think of you; I’ll just try to smile. And No! Never will I again think of you last, when I go to sleep. Sleep is my only rest, so please don’t plague me in my dreams.
I’ll give my affection to any girl who’ll need them but not my heart because I’m still trying to get it back from you. I’ll give her the love that you never wanted, the kiss that I so longed to give you & the words that once was yours. Worthy or not worthy of it, at least she is here & you’re not.
I’m moving on hoping that the next thing would be letting go.

My Heart Keeps Saying!

Oh- my love! From where do i begin?
How may i begin to tell you how i felt? What went wrong & how i feel now? Three months have passed since the day i found love, since that october day, when my life changed forever. It is the second time, i am feeling such an high intensity of affection & care for someone.
When we first met, there was something about you, something that made me feel like i had never before. Everytime i thought of you i could feel the butterflies fluttering inside me. When i looked at at you, nothing could turn my eyes away, when i touched you, i felt as though we were the only two in existence. Nobody else was seen or heard, nobody else mattered.
And what i have to remember you by? Neither a letter nor a picture of yours. Nothing but memories kept within my heart. Memories locked away for only you to open. Waiting longing, hoping that one day you will come & unlock that sacred moment so that we can share them together. But as i wait, i watch the sunset into the horizon & my heart sinks with it. And i feel the touch of moonlight making me hope that tommorow with the rising sun, i’ll be one day closer to being with you.
Will you love me? It;s not just a simple question, it’s a curiosity penetrating the heart of a broken soul. You have touched my soul in teh way of its recreation, so now i am asking that will you accompany me in the path of my life which is like a journey without map? M i able enough to have your commitment?
Your answer may be negative, but even then my heart will always relive the moment of your arrival in my life

I'm Hurt.

Tears are falling from my eyes as I sit & cry at night,

Blood is dripping from my heart as I try to write,
I have so much pain, I'm hurt a lot,
Aah! I can't explain I'm just falling apart.
No one understands!

I don't know from where to start & where to end,
love hurts so much like thousand stabbing knives,
Especially when you have all this pain,
that you wish you could deny?
I am so sore right now,
My heart is racing fast, I wish I could forget all this,
Leave it in the past.

But there will always be a memory,
A memory of us together.
How we loved each other..
In my heart I'll hold this memory even though I know,
You don't care.

The scar you left in my heart will always be there.

NOTE: I realised the truth straight from your heart,
I saw deep inside that us have to part,
Your words fooled me right at the start,
But What they did so well?
Is They "BROKE MY HEART"